my mask

Music blasts through my head and my thoughts cease
The relief I feel at that moment is as sweet as nectar
Lyrical feelings override me and set aside my pain
I can feel anything I want to,  listening to it all
The screaming rage, the soft contentment
Happiness for a mere second,  grief and shame for two
And then when it stops I feel empty
Like my heart has been pumped dry of the red hot blood
Replaced with tar and ink
Slow moving, poisonous pain
To stay until I have my fix of music once more

Thoughts and meanings

My words will bleed into your brain

Taking control and killing it

You will do what I say because I say it

My madness will crush you dead

And lay you down to the depths of despair

because I have my way and everyone loses

The ruthlessness scares me sometimes

I revel in it and feel my hatred rage

Ruining life

My Omega

The last of me
Will always be my hatred
Burning heat, freezing cold
It always aches
Hammers smashing against my skull
Knives twisting into my stomach
It hurts
It feels so alive
Burning poisons pumping through my veins
Pressing me to act
To relieve that ache
I will be consumed
Pent up frustration rejuvenating me
Clearing my mind, killing it
It will never fade
My hatred is forever

Odium of me

The energy comes with each breath

Filling my soul with destruction and darkness
The anger, the hate rushes through me like daggers across my skin 

I curse the world and everything of it
Wanting it to burn, to feel it kill me
Because when I destroy my world, the hate will go away
And be replaced with emptiness
I pity myself
With my same eyes I pity the world
With my same eyes I hate it as well
I could leave it all behind
Never look back and focus on oblivion
That is where the peace will lead me