Alone

I don't want them to know
Because they wouldn't understand
Or they would understand too well
I am ashamed of my words
I don't want them to try and fix me
Why don't I want to be fixed?
What would I lose?

insanity

The pain is everywhere
Under my eyes
Constricting my throat
Shredding my skin
It burns and bleeds
But then is gone
Because it is all in my head

Dead or Alive

Can you feel the hot blood pumping just under your skin?
That is the only thing you feel.
You don't feel the loneliness
You don't feel the emptiness
You are numb to it
But it is all around you
Never letting you go
You find a solace and it follows
What is happiness again?
What did it feel like?
You wish you could remember
But you died a long time ago

Revenge

I see them with apathy

I hope it is an improvement

What I saw them with,
Insane Hatred

Remembering the scoffing and strife

The conceited smiles and prideful eyes

I need to tear them down

Pick them apart

Shatter their spirits

Break them 

Watch them fall

Because what I felt
It was sad

It made me hateful

I had to justify

With revenge

Given up

I see my potential
Cursing myself for not living up to it
How great a man I could be
What a coward I truly am
I ask why was I made like this
But I suspect it has been my choice all along
I have a self loathing for my imperfection
It makes me pitiful
Seeking flawlessness that I cannot obtain
The sadness at this realization is overwhelming
It is depression whispering for me to give up
I give up too easily
I give up too often
Forsaking anything at the impression of resistance
Be better.
Be stronger.
Why are you so weak?